There is a freedom in not being in control. When that something that is God's heart is coming after you. It's exciting and really challenging. When you feel like you are in the middle of a violent waterfall and your raft has gone sideways and you really want to bail and at the same time you know that you have to stay the course or you will miss something BIG. I am learning how to release, to not defend myself, to not act as my own protector.
WHY? is the wrong question........a better question is "Why does it matter?" James Dobson says "it is not your responsibility to explain what God is doing in your life. He has not provided enough information to figure it out. Instead, you are asked to turn loose and let God be God. Therein lies the secret to the peace that transcends understanding."
Turning loose is part of preferring the bottom, it's an unexpected front door to peace. But it is legitimately hard. It requires conscious decisions to abandon formerly vital things like reputation, perception, position, control.
It is something entirely different to adopt the mind of Christ. That's when we don't just act lowly.....we are lowly. The decisions you make non a low position are completely opposite this that are made in a high place. The people you seek counsel from are different. The way you move forward is different. The way you trust is different. The rules at the top are different from those at the bottom and visa versa. and at the bottom we are free from adhering to the top dwelling rules. Make sense. it does to me. it actually is not just a positional change that affects you today..... it affects every decision and relationship you have in the future when you dwell at the bottom.
Living at the bottom you have nothing left to protect, no position left to defend, no reputation to guard and no one else to please. I'm turning loose.